My journey through hell & back. With abuse from an early age, the anxiety, OCD & panic took its place. "My heart was throbbing like crazy, I got dizzy and lost control of my own body - this was my very first panic attack." This book takes place in various situations in my life, I invite you to witness my deepest, darkest secrets and emotions. 30 years of extreme OCD, anxiety, PTSD and depression. • How can you detect child abuse? • How to cope with OCD and anxiety? • See the bigger picture? "What can I do now, to help others? I can always be honest."